Walking During the Night

It occurs to me that many of us live life by the steering wheel of fear. Trying continually to snatch it back with many failed attempts. Some examples might be the building of invisible, emotional walls around our hearts so no one can hurt us, never driving because someone we loved died tragically in a car crash, never getting pregnant again for fear of loosing another baby. Some of these hit home very hard.

For me, tragedy has been the cause of some deeply rooted fears, panic attacks, and anxiety. Suffering a stillborn baby girl as a nervous, young newlywed and loosing my Daddy unexpectedly name two of them. It has been more than I can bear at times.

One statement that always gets me is, “God will never put on you more than you can bear.” I have to shake my head and smile at that one. I know those words are spoken out of love and good intention but, I don’t believe them to be completely true. I have a hard time believing God gives us any bad thing. But, I do believe His loving ways turn ashes into beautiful creations.

If we never had problems, then why would we even need Him in the first place? What would provoke us to turn our eyes upon Him? Why was Jesus sent to die for the sins of this world?

We could never repay the debt of sin we owed. Lambs could be slaughtered like in the old testament days every second, from this day forward and it still wouldn’t cover our multitude of sins. God knew we needed more and He gave it…

That’s why Jesus’ sacrifice was so ultimate. We could never earn it of our own ability. It could never be repaid. His act of selfless obedience was the most selfless act of all.

Yes, He died for our sin but, He also died for our sanity. Look here where it says, “Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.” Isaiah 53:4-5. Sin is a prelude to all the bad happening in our world. Our fallen world is far from perfect and tragedy can strike at any moment in any form because of it. Yet, even in tragedy Jesus’ sacrifice and promises STILL ring true. 

Having peace when you feel like you’re walking in the “night” of life doesn’t make sense, does it? Smiling when all hell seems to be raging against you makes satan tremble in fear. 2 Timothy 2:3 “Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ.”

James 1:2-3 says, “My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.” Trails create character if we endure them while clinging to Christ. I can see a visual of this in my spirit; a small child clinging to their big, strong father as the wind whips and howls around them. The child’s grip to the father is strong but, more importantly, His grip on the child is even stronger. And because HE is steady, the strongest of winds cannot overtake them. Can you see it too!? What a beautiful representation of how we should see our relationship with God, our Father.

The disastrous winds of life blow daily, it doesn’t take many hours into your morning to find something bad. Especially if you are walking in the dark of night. Darkness is blinding.

Hell rages around us while we are yet unaware. Still, Heaven is abounding amidst us. We are oblivious without being tapped into the spiritual realm. Sometimes we seem to ignore it on purpose. Might I add, most come to a point in life where they know a higher power exists. I like to call it an identity crisis or rather an identity discovery, depending on where it leads you. Ask God to show you WHO He is, I can guarantee He will in His timing. What we know of God, determines how far we walk with Him. Sometimes we leave Him behind. Don’t mistake that for God leaving you because a good Father never does that!

The darkness of the world we live in has so many precious people blinded from LIGHT. I know many people who love Jesus but, they are so broken and confused by the tragedies happening in our world or in their families. The notorious question lingers in many conversations, “Why would God let this happen?” It is left unanswered because we just don’t know…

I’m not here to say that I understand God from bottom to top. But, I know enough about His nature to know that bad isn’t an aspect of Him at all. James 1:17 is solid proof of that, “Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.”A Good Father never harms His child.

The darkness around us is the evilness and free will of the world. But, that darkness around you is meant to provoke you to a continuous cycle of prayer and trust in Jesus. It is meant to point you to His LIGHT! Without HIS communication and illumination your world is hopeless and dark.

The best news of all is that when Jesus walks beside you, it doesn’t even take on the appearance of night anymore, because His lights outshines the darkest of nights. Grab hold of HIS hand never let go!


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